so yesturday the twenty first i told my “ex” how i felt about this whole breakup thing and how it wouldnt be easy for me to get over him because i fell in love with him. first kid i ever fell in love with. i wasnt planning to fall in love and it just happened.
then that afternoon he asked if i would like to get back with him and stuff. i feel like he said it because i was sad and crying myself to sleep. he said he wanted to give it another try. i wanted to say no but instead i said yes and i wont give my hopes up though. this will probably help me get over it but we’ll see.
then today the twenty second he asked me if i still wanted to marry him and have kids with him just like how we had planned. i said yes but idk. im not getting my hopes up this time though. but idk if he wants to be with me though because some girl who i think is his ex asked him what was wrong and he said “i rather talk in private” but idk if he told her what he told me about his “friend and boyfriend” ugh im back with him and already doubting this relationship :/ this isnt healthy yet im still doing this. i just dont know what to do. all i want is someone to talk to. :/
