How can someone who says they love you hurt you over and over again.
I’m at the point where I don’t care about anything or anyone. I’d rather die then be alive.
its so sad that danny tells me he loves me and asks if he can stay with me if he visits but yet he is telling morgan that hes depressed and how his uncle is trying to set him up with a friend. and she said maybe thats good. i hope karma bites him in the ass. /: i hate that he keeps hurting me and i keep forgiving him like an idiot. /: as im writing this i wanna cryy. but trying not too. i try to laugh it off but its not gonna work for that long.
i sent chris a message saying he should hook it up with a friend when he comes hahah.
its like fine you wanna hurt my feelings trying to get at another girl well i can do the same with some guy. stupid idiot.
on my birthday he talked to erica because she wrote on her wall. and he was telling her how he fell for her and stuff at the end she didnt reply. he got upset and starting saying he didnt care and blah blah blah. when i asked him what was wrong he said his brother had annoyed him. then later i said he looked really cute holding the baby on his default. [its his baby cousin] then he comes out with lets have a baby and live together. i told him that i had money and was gonna save it up to go over there. and he said really? would you really? i said yeah once you clear your head.
later he was talking to morgan cause shes having problems too. then she said something how she wanted to take a break. and danny said im taking one right now. and told her he had broken up with me so he can get over erica even though he had talked to her that day. he said he still loves her and loves me too and it isnt fair for me. cause i love the kid and he loves someone else. but what i dont think its fair is that his uncle sophal knows a girl that likes asians and he told danny and now he wants her to add him on facebook. its like if you love me and trying to get over erica why would you try to get to know someone else. that hurts more.
then on his horoscope thing that he gets on facebook said “if youre single, youre gonna meet new people through family friends and stuff.” that got me sad.
then last night we were texting and he was gonna get food. then i fell asleep and i texted him back like 3 hours later and said sorry i fell asleep good night <3 dream sweet <3 i love you <3 and when i woke up again i didnt get a text but he later updated facebook and said he was at some music festival in atlanta but couldnt text me back /:
wtf. im soo confused. okay we broke up and then we started talking again but not all day just at night. then i told him i went to san diego and i came back today may 2nd and when he told me good night he also texted “muuuuuuaaahhh” he wasnt doing that before and suddenly today he did. wtffff im soo confused. we arent together. yet we still say “iloveyou” and he said muah today. ughh. and he texted me on the afternoon and i didnt reply, he texted a twice again and nothing then sent me an email. i turned my phone off like 2 hours later i have like 3 emails and 5 texts from him. saying he was scared and worried cause i wasnt replying and how he hoped i was just sleeping and nothing had happened to me. i thought that was cute lol. but yeah. im confused. /:
apriltwentyeight.
alll day i wanted to text him. to make sure he didnt do anything stupid. but i didnt. i was able to resist. i couldnt sleep because i kept thinking about him. i was sad i wanted to cry but somehow resisted on doing that. he ending up texting me. telling me he’d like me more than her. because im more different than her, im not bossy and i joke around and not always serious and dont have a daughter. he still loves me he just wants to get her out of her head. he doesnt think its fair that hes with me while still having feelings for her. im at a point where i dont know what to do anymore /:
You’re so complicated. First you say you don’t like me and now just cause we went a day without texting you say you missed me and you love me and stuff I don’t get it. Make up your mind!
marchthrityfirst.
he was looking at houses yesturday. for us and maybe my parents. he wants a five bedroom with a pool. wants to have 3-4 kids. stuff like that gives me hopes. i know it shouldnt but i cant help it. i love him soo damn much.
he textes me to tell me we can still text if i want. so i said diidnt we just break up cause he wanted to be alone? and hes like i meant like in relationship wise. so i start asking if he still loves her and he said yeah but he also loves me. i hate that. :/ i feel like im just his second choice. i just asked him if she still loved him how he loves her and hes not sure. even though its killing me about talking about his ex im still gonna help him decide. help him maybe get back with her. :/
He might get back with her. :/ I’m stupid. I’m an idiot. I hate myself so much right now. I wish this was all a dream. Too bad its not. Idk what to do anymore. :(
i wasn’t looking but I found you
I wasn’t ready but you got me anyway