May 2011
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its so sad that danny tells me he loves me and asks if he can stay with me if he visits but yet he is telling morgan that hes depressed and how his uncle is trying to set him up with a friend. and she said maybe thats good. i hope karma bites him in the ass. /: i hate that he keeps hurting me and i keep forgiving him like an idiot. /: as im writing this i wanna cryy. but trying not too. i try to...
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on my birthday he talked to erica because she wrote on her wall. and he was telling her how he fell for her and stuff at the end she didnt reply. he got upset and starting saying he didnt care and blah blah blah. when i asked him what was wrong he said his brother had annoyed him. then later i said he looked really cute holding the baby on his default. [its his baby cousin] then he comes out with...
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wtf. im soo confused. okay we broke up and then we started talking again but not all day just at night. then i told him i went to san diego and i came back today may 2nd and when he told me good night he also texted “muuuuuuaaahhh” he wasnt doing that before and suddenly today he did. wtffff im soo confused. we arent together. yet we still say “iloveyou” and he said muah...
April 2011
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apriltwentyeight. alll day i wanted to text him. to make sure he didnt do anything stupid. but i didnt. i was able to resist. i couldnt sleep because i kept thinking about him. i was sad i wanted to cry but somehow resisted on doing that. he ending up texting me. telling me he’d like me more than her. because im more different than her, im not bossy and i joke around and not always serious...
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You’re so complicated. First you say you don’t like me and now just cause we went a day without texting you say you missed me and you love me and stuff I don’t get it. Make up your mind!
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marchthrityfirst. he was looking at houses yesturday. for us and maybe my parents. he wants a five bedroom with a pool. wants to have 3-4 kids. stuff like that gives me hopes. i know it shouldnt but i cant help it. i love him soo damn much.
March 2011
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he textes me to tell me we can still text if i want. so i said diidnt we just break up cause he wanted to be alone? and hes like i meant like in relationship wise. so i start asking if he still loves her and he said yeah but he also loves me. i hate that. :/ i feel like im just his second choice. i just asked him if she still loved him how he loves her and hes not sure. even though its killing me...
why do i even try?
He might get back with her. :/ I’m stupid. I’m an idiot. I hate myself so much right now. I wish this was all a dream. Too bad its not. Idk what to do anymore. :(
i wasn’t looking but I found you I wasn’t ready but you got me anyway
honestly tell me that its over. dont wanna be the last to know.
lovers to friends.
all good things come to an end. :/
i was right. he is still in love with her. :/
so the person i call a “boyfriend” likes to take his anger off on me which i hate. because if i text him back and he doesnt like it he starts cussing me out. like how was i suppose to know that you werent going to like my response. when hes mad, everything i do sucks for him. who understands him. he thinks i know whats going on when hes like 06816851651 miles away from me.he pisses me...
February 2011
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so yesturday the twenty first i told my “ex” how i felt about this whole breakup thing and how it wouldnt be easy for me to get over him because i fell in love with him. first kid i ever fell in love with. i wasnt planning to fall in love and it just happened.
then that afternoon he asked if i would like to get back with him and stuff. i feel like he said it because i was sad and...
I’m starting to hate waking up because i wake up sad. and i dont like it. especially because when i see my mom i want to cryy and have her hug me, but my body wont let me. i hate these days. i want to get over it already.
i still cry myself to sleep. i try not to but right before i go to sleep i start to feel sad. its so hard to get over this break up.
I hate that im not with him. i woke up this morning hoping it would have been a nightmare but i remember it wasnt. even though i still talk to him as friends it still makes me sad. every night i cry myself to sleep because im still sad about it and i need to let it all out. i always feel sad at night and when i wake up and i reallly hate this.
i miss being a fourteen year old punk rocker. haha i loved how i would dress.
ugh it been eight years since my grandpa died yet i still cry everytime i hear them talking about him. it makes me sad because i saw what he had to go through. from being fit to being soo skinny. how it was hard for him to walk and chew. i was so scared of hugging him. or when i saw him in the hospital even worse. ill always remember him for getting me out of school when i pretended to be sick....
At times ill just sit there and think about my childhood. how every school year i had a different babysitter. never spent too much with my parents yet we were close. :/ i kinda miss that. i never had to worry about how long i would be living in a house because i never moved like 788944346458 times like now.
i hate how when i was 10 i was forced to move with my mom to la paz. where i was...
theres days when i find food disgusting, i dont eat, or make myself to eat. i kinda wanna start to work full time because then i wont have to eat alot. just like before wake up at 6 get the bus get to henderson at 830 then walk like a 10 minute walk. then run around in the office when it was super busy which was like always then eat 2 sandwiches at lunch then run around some more then walk that 10...
i hate that when im sad and trying not to cry or stop myself i hurt myself. i bury my nails in my skin because thats the only thing i know how to do. i hate when i do it alot but i like to feel the pain. it helps me. but lately ive been doing it too often and thats not good. i need to stop but that wont happen.
i want to be that i dont care chick like forever. the one that didnt care about relationships. the one that was a bitch, boyfriend stealer.the one that talked to soo mnay guys and didnt fall for them soo quick. the one that didnt trip about silly things.
i want to be the old me again. single and not giving a fuck but i still care about this kid. first relationship where i care too much about the...
man so its official. we’re over and it hurts soo bad. I had to tell my dad because i really needed a hug from him. he even gave me some advice and it kinda helped but i still had to cry. im surprised he didnt tell my mom because i had to tell her this morning and then i started to cry.
he gave me a reason which hurt me even more, which was that he didnt feel the same because his feelings...
So i found out that he would rather be with his ex than me because he doesnt feel what he felt for her in me. He would like to feel what he felt in the past again. It honestly hurt sooo much. this is the first relationship where i actuallly gave a fuck. but no never again will i give a fuck too soon. its not even worth it. i feel like we’re broken up but he wont reply to my email. then he...
ugh.. my day started out lame because i found out whose Danny ex girl is. and what she said to him. about finding his ring that he happened to get for her. Lately hes been treating me like crap. and then this morning he was like what are you doing. where are you going. who are you going with. like what the fuck is that. but then during the day he was actually nice and things were good. but then...
Sitting in the car with my uncle while waiting for my parents is just weird. I hate this silence
I dislike you.
At first i didn’t want to do the whole “long distance relationship” but i thought I’d give it a try anyway. Our relationship started out great mainly because we would talk all day either by texting, webcamming, and talking on the phone at night. It even went great when he came to visit me. No fighting no nothing. Then he moved to live at his dads and things weren’t...
So I decided to make a personal tumblr because i cant post anything personal on my main one.
I’m really starting to doubt my relationship because he gets mad at stuff i do yet if i get mad at him he makes a big deal out of it. Then on our two months together he tells me talks to his ex instead of telling me happy two months and stuff. It wasnt how i wanted to start my day. He expects me to...